Naked

I bare myself, I'm in the nude
I've stripped down naked for you
To turn me away now, would just be rude
The second you get to know my truth
Examine my flaws, under close eye
So that you will never again need to ask why
Place me under the deepest scrutiny
All the millions of pieces of me
Under this light what do you see
As you softly and slowly shame me
Naked I am, I hold no lies
You can easily see all the things I disguise
My truths are revealed, for your eyes to see
So slowly and surely you understand me
Touch me with your hands
So that you may more so understand
The me that is under this skin
Somehow touch the me within
Talk to her and you will find
the deepest part of my heart and mind
The most real and most human of myself
I offer her to help you be blessed
Graced
loved
She is the ultimate truth

I stand here naked, in the nude
hoping you can find my truth
hoping you're the one I've searched for all my life
hoping you can see me, even when you close your eyes
I bare it all in hopes of this
hoping you see more when I'm naked

The Meaning of Life

By all accounts it was meant for us as dwellers of the earth to live peacefully. God most defintely meant it for our good. Because of all the evil in the world people question two things so naturally at some point in their life.

"Why am I here?" And "Is love a real thing?"

Both these are questions that believers such as myself and scientists try to answer in two very different ways.
A scientist might say something to the effect that we exist in this world because of all the laws of evolution. We weren't here at first but we developed from some micro-organism or some dumb crap like that. They may try to explain the feelings we get from loving others as endorphins released from the brain and giving the pleasurable places on our body feel good sensations.
Believers like me believe we are here because God created us and this world. Simple. We believe that love is our gift from God. And in many ways love is God.

Maybe a believer's idea of life is a little more complex than what I just stated but when you get down to the point of it...for most people that about sums it up.

I have a bit of a mixed philosophy because I always try to see things a certain way...
Personally, those two questions mesh into one big philosophical answer for me. We were put here on this earth to love one another. Love is the supreme and superior understanding of the world in which we live. No one can escape love, we all fall prey to it at some point. We should want that love. We should never run from it we should only surrender. It is the healthy thing for us.

My own view of love is that it is the most extreme of the extremes...the most powerful of all powers heard of. Love the noun is an abstraction. You can not physically sense it in any way. You can however make total sense of it in your mind, which is why so many people have so many different views of it.

Love the verb is an extreme action to something or someone. The act of loving is pleasant and mind sobering . Loving allows us to see life in a completely different light. When you love, and you keep constant with that love, life is complete and joyful and peaceful. You cannot see yourself loving someone, you can however feel the emotions that come along with love.Love does that. To everyone.

I know I sound like a hippie right now but I'm not trying to because my understanding of love isn't about making love (sex) it's about experiencing something so different that sex is irrelavant. My understanding of love is that love as the abstract noun and as the most active verb...is God. And if love is the meaning of life, and love and God are one and the same...God is the meaning of life.
LOVE=GOD :-)

Seek Peace, Find Blessings
Kitty

The Generic God Bless You

People say it everyday. For many different reasons. One could be in a good mood, one could say it meaning "thank you", or someone could be saying it simply because someone sneezed. Yes if you haven't figured it out yet, I'm talking about the phrase, "God Bless You." It has become such a common courtesy of our world to say those words. So common that I take issue with the meaning behind those words from some people. All too often those words are used to mask malice or anger. An example of this happened to me during the Christmas season. A middle aged woman came up to our car after we left out of a Marshalls after Christmas shopping for some last minute items. She told us her story about how she had been living out of her car with her kids for the last few days and asked if we could spare a few dollars for her and her kids to eat lunch. While I had no reason to believe the lady was lying,we still couldn't afford to spare her a few dollars, we were struggling as it was to get things ready for Christmas. So unfortunately we had to tell her no. She looked disappointed and let out a "God Bless You anyway." Well suffice it to say I didn't feel very blessed by those words. Her heart wasn't in them. Her mouth spoke words that she didn't actually mean. There are better examples of malice behind those words, this is just one that is all too common. It happens when someone doesn't get their way. When they wish to make whomever they said the words to feel guilt or shame. As if throwing God into the mix will shame you for not acting more Christ-like. I will admit, in this case if her intent was to shame me, it worked. I found myself wishing that I had given her something to help her out, but we really couldn't afford to.

All too often people use the phrase God Bless you in a negative way. People use it so nonchalantly not even realizing what they are saying.
Those three words hold so much power. Those words are like prayer to God individualized for one person. God Bless You. I challenge anyone who reads this to say those words as if they are magic, like 'abra cadabra,' because in a strange kind of way they are majestic. They are privileged words that should not be taken as lightly as we take them. When you say those words mean those words. Say them in situations where your intent really is to ask God to bless someone. That phrase connects our souls and shows compassion of a far greater kind than any thank you in any language in the world. God Bless You is one of the most tender beautiful phrases you can say to another person, likened to I love you. Those words have power beyond our understanding. They are what places God between two individuals and unites them in a point in time. God Bless You means more than what people have turned it into and I'm here to reclaim it's artful, majestic, powerful, holiness. Those three words coupled together deserve better treatment and intent out of the mouths from which they come.

Find Peace and Be Blessed,
Kitty

Blossoming

There are people out in the world, whose sole purpose in life is to hurt others. I know that sounds like a grim start to this Blog entry, but the fact of the matter is that it is true. There are people who want to see others unhappy all the time. They feed off the hurt and anger and desperation of others, so much in fact that they seemingly get a high from it and seek it no matter the detriment that it may cause to others. These people are in our world to do the devils work, and they are good at their jobs. They are excellent at it. But we, as Gods people, must learn to bloom all year round because it becomes to painful to hold back the good within us.

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
-Anais Nin

God sees the abundance of joy and laughter that you want to spread, and he's not asking you to wait and share it. He's telling you to go ahead and spread this. Especially in this day and age. This world could use a little happiness right now. No matter how minuscule your role in life may seem to be it is necessary in the grand design. You may have allowed someone to convince you that what you do, and who you are doesn't matter, but don't allow that muddy water to track into your mind because it will cloud and distort the visions that God places into your heart and mind.

You yourself may be your own worse enemy. You may have convinced yourself of failure. Good intentions are almost always corrupted by fears. But Fear Not, because God is with You. He always is.

My point in its entirety is that whether it be you, or an enemy who is stopping you from your path toward divinity, take a moment to think about who it is and what their real goals are in your life. Soak in the joy and the plan that God originally set for you and Open up your heart to the truth behind your existence. And everyday for the rest of your life, you will BLOSSOM.

Find Peace and Be Blessed,
Kitty

And the Tears

For all the rain that has fell from the skies For all the pain that has formed in my eyes For every mountain that I've had to climb Lord I thank you for all my trials For every step backwards that I have taken For every blessing that I've forsaken For every time you've helped me realize the truth Lord I thank you Every plunge I've made through the years Every time I've hidden from my fears Thank you for drying the eyes of the weary Thank you for the pain and the tears For without these tears I wouldn't know true pain Without my struggles I'd have little to gain Lord if not for your test I wouldn't be head strong Life wouldn't be worth living if nothing went wrong For I know I can only receive true happiness through you Because after all the test, trials, and tribulations I go through I know you only do this to benefit my mind, body, and spirit So thank you for the pain and the Tears -By Cathryn Brooks AKA Kitty This poem

This poem is dedicated to anyone who wants to know why God is testing you. He's testing you to make you stronger and to get you ready for what's coming next. He's testing you so that you can stand in the time of a storm. Don't question his excellence, or his wisdom. Accept his test and try your best to pass them.

Human Nature

Sometimes people are just too proud to let people help them. Sometimes people are too proud to say sorry when they know they're at fault for something. Sometimes people hold up that brick wall to there hearts and won't allow love in. Why? I know I'm just a naturally emotional person and that the ease of expressing my emotions is not something other people have readily accessible. But one thing I do want to get straight is that I am not a pushover because of these emotions. I am simply human. It's programmed into everyone at some point in there life to be lovestruck, to help someone, and to eventually hurt someone. We can only hope that in our time of need we too will receive love and sacrifice from another human being. I was talking to my sister the other day and for some reason she thinks that people should make a life for themselves without help from anyone else. I just don't see how that would be possible. There's a lot more good in this world than what people presume. And along with that good comes help from people,whether strangers or otherwise. Any little thing people can do even something as simple as holding open a door for someone is warranted at any moment in time. People pleasantly surprise one another every minute of every day. I think the most salient factor in life is to help and give to people even when you know it won't benefit you in any way.God wants us to be human, to hurt...to cry...to aspire...to help...to care...to love. I'm just thinking where would our species be without compassion. Where would all the great nations of the world be Today...if no one ever loved and cared for someone else. Sure we hurt each other, but we heal and we love again. Hurt only makes us stronger....teaches us lessons

I think I'm rambling a lot but to exemplify my point....there was a show about secret millionaires and from the preview of the show I deduced that the millionaires would be giving large sums of money to people who were deserving of it. One of the people given this money responded...'do you know how many people I can help with this money?' it was a pivotal point in my journey to womanhood. I want to help people and I don't want anything from them. I want people to look at me and say she does all she can to uplift a dying human spirit. I want people to see me as someone who cares about everyone.

Please don't think I'm a hippie, tree hugger type of person...because I'm not. I just have undying faith in love and the human capacity to receive and give it...I believe it's limitless.

Find Peace and Be Blessed
Kitty

Light and Dark

This is an issue I have had for many years. It is the most primal of fears to mankind. I have always been afraid of the dark. It may seem kind of childish, but I was taught to fear the unknown, and in the dark you don't know anything because it is so very powerfully blinding in a way that you have no control over. Darkness is beautiful in that, it can never really be seen...but it's extremely terrifying to me because I love to be able to see. I think creation, all of creation is beautiful and to not be able to see it is simply too distressing, so distressing that I have the most irrational thoughts flowing through my head when in the dark. But this is true to anything that is unknown. For example if someone was to sit next to you whispering to someone else and they both happened to look over at you...one would automatically assume that they one was being talked about in a negative way. One would have the craziest irrational thoughts come through their mind. Darkness does this to me. Darkness whispers all around me and makes me think negative things that it is trying to do. HMMMM...does that make sense???
Light on the other hand is just beautiful. It is a presentation of the world around us and reveals truths that the darkness has absolutely no authority to divulge. Light is revelation of what was in the dark and darkness is a concealer of the truth. They are both useful in there own ways. Darkness though to me is less useful because it freaks me out. What we must realize is that in the darkness God is there. Maybe we can't see him or hear him. But the positivity the calming factor of the darkness, how we peacefully sleep through the night in the dark and how we feel secure at some point, is the point when God reaches us. It's the point when our fears are overcome by the presence of Him.

This is how I find my peace. With the knowledge that God is always there.

So...

Find Peace and Be Blessed,
Kitty